rant #231006

it rather touched me to attend the sunday service yesterday. i think om joni spoke powerfully (sternly) from the Bible passage in 1 Kings 22:1-28. i can't help but thinking that the message was meant to hit hard at our slowness as a church to regard God's word as having an authority over the church (people). i'm talking about the application of God's word rather than the inability to claim that the Bible is the word of God. it's appaling what some are capable of thinking of themselves so highly that what's acted out is no more than denying what's believed at the first place. it sounds rather harsh to put it this way, however, having been a member of the church for the past seven years, somehow you can't afford to be so ignorant toward things that happen in surrounding.

at some point throughout the service, i can't seem to contain myself, and the whole service just made me all weepy once a song was sung after the talk. i have to admit that i am on my soft side lately. i felt overwhelmed at times, and wonder if this has become more of a weakness of my emotional side than meekness. i know that i am never a tough person nor overly unreasonable, but i hardly feel to be able to overcome it lately.

'People Needs the Lord' - jenny and andrew ho sang it beautifully, but what sadness it is that many times the much needed efforts to reach out was much diverted into mending the un-ending internal issues among the members. people just can't help to express their old sinful behaviours despite the warnings in the Bible that Jesus died for the church and it matters how we are supposed to treat the church with care and dignity as a result. can only throw this at the mercy of God's hand.

what do you usually do when you're feeling overwhelmed?