truth be told

i was reading some news this morning. it was a moment of reflection as i came to term with two pieces of news reporting on two deaths.

one concerning a famous person, the other was an un-identified body.
one lying dead in his apartment in perhaps a well-known location in new york, the other floating on top of the water at the famous bondi beach in sydney.
one having pills near his body, the other a surf board tied to the body.
one making such headlines that quickly filled out the space in many websites, the other having only four sentences in a piece of news that even i was uninterested in checking out at the first place.
one with a lot being left behind yet brought nothing with him in the end, the other i wasn't sure whether he was a rich or poor, good or bad person, single or leaving behind the family who depends on him.
one remembered for his fine achievements and sorry for leaving so young, the other i don't know whether i'll ever know who he was unless the police tells the media and the media publishes the update.
one is heath ledger, the other is john doe.

yet they boil down to one reality. they died.

still a few days ago, i was reading some news. they concerned a vast number of people.
some (of the news) affect the businesses of those in the wealthy part of the world. still some of the turmoils and disorder in the third world.
some on translating to drastic actions taken to make things right (only comparable to eating an elephant, which is highly unlikely), still some told of the underlying problems that seem so untouch and could lead to even more injustice.

yet they boil down to a similar problem. those things that people think they could hang on to (money, people in leadership), are simply not delivering.

how many reasons does one need to come to term that nothing is right in this world and that something is missing in this life?

yet my atheist friend told me less than a week ago, "i don't believe in god". i suppose he doesn't want to, that's his problem, not whether there's a god or not. i suppose he doesn't need God, not whether it makes any difference if there's a god or not. however, i also suppose that with or without God, he still faces death who knows when, and with or without God, he still can't rely on himself, otherwise why are people unreliable or things aren't delivering? i suppose he feels good as a person, but that's not enough to solve the issue of life, precisely death.