what a year it has been!

some highlights:

- family under God's care. a few things from people's sharings this year has been spurring me in being persistent in pleading to God for their sake. needless to say, i treasure every sustained 'chaotic' moments that life has to offer being in a big family setting. what a joy to help and be helped!

- the friendships that God brought along at workplace. i thought people's openness and eagerness to listen (not) more than i'm willing to share Christ at the first place is a priceless lesson indeed.

- the fortnightly prayer meetings organised by ecom. it's encouraging to meet like-minded cns to support one another in our witness at work.

- the weekly bible study peers. thanking God for His providence that together we are given the opportunities to grow in the knowledge of Christ. and for God's blessings really even in the physical term: azar, eileen and nat graduated in flying colors from college and uni, cyn goes to bible college next year, nat got a job recently, selda keeps coming back for more (hopefully! wierd as this sounds!), moi having the priviledge to see that God's at work in their life.. (breath in, breath out - a sign of unstable emotional pressure in chest, not necessarily a bad thing, btw).

- the cn friends for our love (and hate :) -ing relationships. it's amazing how God is able to mould His people at church! thank God for the warning and assurance in 1 John 2.

some lowlights:

yes, there have been one or two (and they hurt! writing these makes me teary once again, but it's for my sanity that i acknowledge this, since when did i speak like a psycholog?). and it's dissapointing to have to 'sacrifice' (i'm sure it's not the most precise wording i could have been using and i must say i'm not the only 'victim' here, any unheart perspectives count, so to speak) some friendships, partly due to my conscience and partly for a few prayers said that God allowed in perceiving the much ungodliness involved in people's life and myself included. a blessing in disguise, it made me realise and appreciate more of God's loving action in sacrificing His own Son for sinners like me and you who cause much troubles yet escape unharm.

ps. i forbid anyone to comment on the lowlights, it's a close chapter of my life. i appreciate the unexpressed symphaty, if any (breath in, breath out..).