note to self #171106

this morning, i had to catch a bus. i had 10 mins left for the earliest one, and the next one would be another 30 mins. i need at least 8 mins to reach the bus stop. i didn't feel like having my breakfast, not until i reached the office later. i remembered i haven't much cereal left at the office (my vegemite run out :). therefore, i needed to fill in yet another jar to bring. and by the time i put on my shoes, i had spent 4 mins at least. but i moved on. i ran intermittenly throughout, hoping to get on the bus just in time.

i missed the bus. i had to wait at the bus stop for another 25 mins. it was cold, but i had my overcoat on. so i read my book. fine. and waited. freezed.

there's just something that i learnt about myself. i think i prefer to 'stuff up', taking the troubles of running out of my breath while having clearly known that the chance to overcome is less than one in two THAN to let thing be, it's a non-crucial one somehow, and therefore give myself a break. crikey, when i can't stop myself, the only thing to stop me is reality (and off course God is behind all things). don't i just like a bit of challenge many times.. (better still if this helps me to not be in for a challenge with others, not easily understood perhaps).

simply, which one are you, run or wait?