got things

so folks, won't be blogging for a while..

in the mean time, look what i've found! from the "lost and found" section of the blogsphere ;)
these peeps have been keeping things quiet for a while, and i go gung-ho at them without asking for their permissions first! i guess anything that's in the web is meant to be disclosed for public consumption, right? (by definition then naty is a super-organised freak * who is also good at being secretive! wow.. an.. under..cover?!)

epel (self-confessed nerd.. friends are rare to be found)
hin (God bless her on her birthday! today is)
mien (again?!)
naty (anyone got a hack to this site? gimme.. gimme..)

* the table-clock in her bedroom, my gosh, 20 mins faster! and the rest of them are at least 10 mins ahead. i got fooled for once and thought to myself how i hate myself for being so naive at times (off course, she is called naty!). what happened was, last sunday, i wake at 6.30 am getting ready for church, and 25 mins later, with a holier-than-thou face, she told me that 'that clock' was 20 mins faster, gah! i was so sleep depraved..

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i could be next?

yep, another one. still happening..

a younger guy this time, i don't know his problem. i know a little of what could be, but i don't want to assume. at first, i thought he is having a flu or something, judging by the sound produced, it isn't. i can't look at his face, he is facing the opposite direction of my seat.

all these people i've just mentioned sit a radius of 3m from me. what's going on..

btw, my lunch that i usually put in the fridge went missing yesterday, and this morning i found the clean empty container on the kitchen bench. never happen like this before. huh?

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behind life's weariness

my dear readers ought to take heart that lately the postings have a sombre tone to them. yesterday, i saw yet another person at work who broke down in tears. i was in the rest room, and i saw this woman sobbing and her eyes were as red and swelling from a cry. she has just been joining the company a few weeks ago. i thought that she's perhaps crying because she has too much to bear with the family issue internally for she is a single mom. her daughter was sick a week ago. i assume this could be part of it, but she said that it was because she has a lot to do work-wise considering her recently joining. plus, she is unsure if she has been doing things right as the manager that she reports to is taking a rather long leave.

(sigh!)

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suffering with hope

an hour ago, a colleague sitting next to me suddenly broke down in tears. i was confused but soon found out that her young nephew in the states was killed in a car crash. she first learnt of the news yesterday from a relative but only had the courage to read of the tragic news via the internet this morning. he wasn't a blood related nephew. he was the only child in the family and the only grandson for her husband's uncle. however, her daughter knew the deceased well and she had been crying many times since yesterday. she is at the moments at lost for words to give a phone call to the deceased's mom.

according to her, he was a good lad. she lamented over the silly cause of the death. he was young and hopeful. i remembered my voice was shaking as i tried to share a little about the hope in Christ. death is indeed a mockery of all of human achievements. but that's not all, Christ rose from the death. we can trust Him to pass from this world and into peace with God. i'm sure she is on the same page when i mentioned that we never know when our time is up but we can indeed prepare ourselves into it. she concluded that we can't do anything about it before i continued sharing what i believe.

i'm praying that God may be at work in her to be seeking Him while the opportunity is still open. i can think of two follow-up opportunities. firstly, this wednesday the topic of the talk at CBF's north sydney is suffering with hope. and secondly, pass on these resources to her - simon manchester's At a Time Like This: Some answers for Loss and Grief and john chapman's Making the Most of the Rest of Your Life.

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thank you mr. bush

i spent the friday long weekends by having a swim at the mq uni swimming pool, cleaning my room, going through the bible study materials and watching a dvd - the pursuit of happiness * (really, a wrong title after all! it's fair to acknowledge the hardship of the protagonist who has no money to survive and was later paid off by the uncrush spirit to persevere).

a tidier room is a real positive. everytime i clean, the aftermath is therapeutic somehow. i think i'm rather 'cursed' that my idea of relaxing always come with having to do something than being idle and lazying under the blanket.

on a less important note, i think the reasons i'm hardly gaining any weights pinned down to these facts below:
- my express metabolism
- it's partly hereditary
- i'm rather an excercise junkie without me realising sometimes
- i don't do snacking very often
- i'm a light sleeper

ps. as i sort out the papers in the shelf of my bedside table, i found a talk outline entitled saved to serve. the other day, i was asked this very question by a girl, whether i have ever thought of the purpose of life. i could have given her a better response (sigh! ...however, i still can come back to her, wayhey...!)

here is a snippet (it was om joe who gave the talk at pemuda):

what's the purpose of life?

* without God:

• achieve as much as possible to make life meaningful and satisfying
• happiness and pleasure

with God:

• seeking to please God - "glorify God and enjoy Him forever"
• the starting point is dealing with sin - we need to be saved from sin. without God we are spiritually dead and without hope.

saved to serve

• the meaning of life is found in serving Jesus and serving one another
• what moves you? Christ's love compels us (2 corinthians 5:14)
• is it the joy of serving or joy in the heart of the one who serves?
• serve or stagnate!

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